Flashes of Truth

Posted by on Mar 18, 2017 | 0 comments

Flashes of Truth

 Lightning flashes

 

We all have them. Hanging out with a friend. Eating popcorn while watching a movie. Enjoying a good book. Ordinary experiences.

But in our ordinary experiences, we sometimes forget we belong to an extraordinary God. And in the midst of life, our extraordinary God slashes like a lightning bolt in the night, bringing truth to light, and we find ourselves re-defined.

Who we were is not who we are. This is the first in a series of blogs about being re-defined.

In my walk with God, I have both seen and felt the lightning bolt of God. And believe me – His Truth brought needed light into my life.

This story is very painful and heart-breaking, but necessary in order to expose how the enemy of our souls wreaks destruction in our lives.

Since I grew up in an angry home and was married to an angry man, anger was my tool for managing life. When I made the life-changing commitment to the Lord, some sin habits disappeared, but not anger. It just moved to the back seat instead of the driver’s seat.

I didn’t get angry as often, but when I did, it was still pretty brutal.

Fast forward several years to the day I became a single mom. I was four and a half months pregnant with Rebekah; Holly was twenty months old. I experienced a range of emotions that day ranging from fear to hurt to abandonment. And anger. Lots of anger directed toward my husband.

What I didn’t realize is that I unconsciously began believing a lie from satan himself: If you hadn’t gotten pregnant, he wouldn’t have left you. It’s your baby’s fault you’re a single mother.

By the time Rebekah was born, the lie had taken hold. I was already angry with my precious new-born daughter and didn’t know it.

When Rebekah reached the age where discipline became a little more “hands on,” I gradually became aware that I would get angry with her a little more quickly than with Holly; that my anger was a little “hotter” with her; that I would stay angry with her for longer periods of time.

I prayed with my friends about it, and while it helped, I still felt underlying anger with my youngest. I knew something had to break and soon.

One day the girls were playing with friends. Rebekah had committed some minor infraction, and my response was minor as well, something to the effect of “Rebekah, don’t do that.” No loud voice, no anger, just a simple correction.

The next thing I knew Rebekah was on my bedroom floor, knees pulled up to her chest, hands covering her face, sobbing uncontrollably. I couldn’t understand what she was saying and had no clue why she had over-reacted. I left her alone, hoping she would calm down on her own. But that didn’t happen. After several minutes, I went back to the bedroom. I tried to talk to her, but she was crying too hard to hear anything. So I listened past the tears and finally understood her words. She kept repeating, “You’re always angry with me, you’re always angry with me!”

Stunned, I felt something like a mist dissolve out of my back as a flash of truth slashed through my being and exposed the lie I had believed: It was Rebekah’s fault I became a single mother.

With that truth, I was redefined.

Freed from the lie and the anger, I scooped Rebekah into my arms and rocked her on my bed. I told her how sorry I was, and, more importantly, how wrong I was. When I asked her to forgive me, she was more than willing. We hugged each other for a long time until she was ready to go play with her sister and friends.

I wish I could say things changed overnight – they didn’t. However, the lie was laid bare and the truth set me free to choose not to get angry. Have I arrived? No. But anger no longer rules me.

A lightning bolt of truth from the heart of our extraordinary God redefined me that day and I was no longer the mother I used to be.

Perhaps you have believed a lie from the devil himself that’s damaged your relationships. I don’t know what it is, but God does. He so wants to set you free and heal your wounded heart. Let God’s truth expose the lie so that who you were is not who you are.

Become re-defined.

Feel free to share your own experiences of flashes of light that re-defined you. I would love to hear from you.

 

 

 

 

 

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